People Throw Rocks
Posted on February 12 2017
Hi all! In all the chaos of the store opening and new website I haven't had time to write a new blog post.
There are sooo many people I want to thank for their help and support over the last two months while working on our store front. First would be my business partner, Ashley. If I didn't have her to vent, complain, or freak out to I'm not sure what I'd do. Second, my husband for helping with construction or with running our kids around. And Brendan because let's face it without your tools and mad construction skills Ashley and I would've been standing in a very cluttered room staring. It's unbelievable the amount of work and details that go into opening a store and I have sooo much more respect for those of you that run out own businesses, especially with store fronts. Here's to the misses doing business!
Next, my blog title. I'm a mere 31 years old and feel as though my life has been through some major changes. In the last couple years I've learned to stop trying to fit a mold and to just be me. It's not that I don't still have self doubts or worry about things, I just don't live for what others think of me anymore. And all I can say is how truly freeing it has been. If I want to wear the hot pink boots, I wear the hot pink boots. If I want to become a cowgirl at 29, I become a cowgirl. If I want to be a successful business owner, I'm sure going to give it my all!
There are a few reasons this has been so freeing to me. First, the weight that has been lifted from my heart by trying to be someone I'm not is incredible. Because I see you people pleasers out there and I know how exhausted you must be. I'm exhausted watching you. Cut yourself some slack and try just pleasing you for a day. It has made me a better person. I feel that I can love more openly, and I'm genuinely happy for other people. When you're happy with your own life, you want the best for others too! Try it! I know everyone's all, Meagan everything isn't all rainbows and unicorns. I know! Trust me I do. But when you live an honest and true life the rainbows come more frequently and get us through the storms.
Now I'm sure you're thinking why is she saying all this and what got under her skin. It's been brought to my attention that I've become selfish and all about myself. At first I was enraged, then heart broken, and now I'm determined to rise above. So I'm here to clear a few things up for the haters and doubters. Yes I co-own a clothing boutique. That means I dress up, take selfies, post on social media. It doesn't mean I'm obsessed with myself. You don't see the sweats, day 4 dirty hair, no makeup, covered in horse shit me. Because be honest, who wants to buy clothes from someone like that? Yes I'm a teacher, I can do both. I stay up until all hours of the night doing what needs to be done and I have an amazing business partner who makes it so I can do both. Yes I'm a wife. My husband is my biggest supporter. He packages orders for me, goes to the post office, and is my partner. Yes we are partners. This is 2017, and we are equal. I don't need him to take care of me and he doesn't need me to take care of him, we take care of each other. And last, I'm a mother, a damn good mother. When they hurt, I hurt. When they are happy, I'm happy. Yes I work, I work a lot. And I don't think that makes me a bad mom. My girls know that if they want to be something, they can! If they want to be gymnasts, they can. If they want to be rodeo stars, let's give it all we got! If they want to be a vet, they can. But guess what, all those things take long hours, lots of time, and lots of education. Those are all things that they are going to say hey you know what our mom did it, we can too. I would die for these girls, so I apologize if I seem slightly dramatic right now but when someone comes after you as a mom, mama bear comes out teeth showing.
I am slightly disappointed in myself for becoming so upset by these hateful words and rumors of others because I pride myself on rising above. But hey we're all allowed a little slip in confidence right? I have been repeating this quote a lot lately. "People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones." Seriously I have it on repeat in my head. If I can make one person feel better about themselves or more confident by writing this blog then it was worth it. Know that if you're struggling you aren't alone. I see you struggling and I know your heart. Keep pushing and fighting. We will be better off because of it. We are all fighting battles that people don't know. Social media is wonderful and awful at the same time. It may look like we're glamorous, partiers, angry, mad etc but it doesn't show us as people and it doesn't show our hearts. So thank you for letting me share my heart with you all today. I hope we can all be a little kinder and love a little more. And as my girl T Swift would say, don't you worry your pretty little mind people throw rocks at things that shine. So shake it off y'all and keep on stepping!
The Turquoise Lady